I've been wanting to come here for a long, long time to pen down the abundance of happenings in chronological order. As I sieve and tease out what I want to say, I know I can't say anything more than what's really on my mind.
And then as usual, I don't know where to start, or where to begin. Because I myself don't really know where or when it began. I can't exactly point a finger to it, because it's so subjective.
(ironically, I remember singing this song in the karaoke with my un-melodious voice eons ago,...and I think, I felt something then)
I guess, the reason why I can't pinpoint where I should start is because I think, I have always believed. I really have. Whether I have any basis for it, any rationality, any reason, I guess the only thing that underlied it all was just feelings.
Oh, I also remember the brightest day was also that rainy day. When you came, I knew I was already taken. Just a mere thought of kindness already had me swooned. It was so hard to hide that wide smile that was obviously carved on my face. And then later, I looked out at the window....wondering of what would have happened or could have then. And when you came in, I felt the reassurance that I'm not wrong and that I'm going to be secure.
And I did not forget the other day! Just a mere look or a stare sent my heart racing, and somewhat chills down my bones. That feeling of excitement was also overwhelmed by worry - I just couldn't take another middle-step. I would be crushed only to find out if it's not what I thought or had hoped it would be.
Ofcourse, I think none can remember that day was vividly as I could. Awkward as I may explain this, I kind of knew I was going to start out Phase 2 of my life. I am so ever grateful for the reassurance and support given by my closest friend, who have been present with me with every step that I had taken since the inception of my feelings. I heard the music playing at the background, I listened to every word of the song. I've never felt this way before, it really was extraordinary. I was sure that I'm walking down the road to happiness, and I'm not alone this time.
Yep, everything did and sometimes does seem surreal. I took the piece of paper out this morning, and gazed at every stroke of the pen that conveyed a message. I appreciate every effort, every thought and every emotion that had gone into it. As I hold it close to myself, my heart beats and the paper resonates. I don't know how I got this lucky.
Back then and now, it had always been a yes.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Anew
I like this time of the year :) Specifically, I guess there's a happy aura floating as 28th Sept approaches. This time last year, I was creating my wish list.
Supposedly my wish list this year will be different. I guess hitting 21 marks a beginning of something new, something fresh yet mature. Materialistically, I sincerely don't know what I'd like to buy. If I were to list, it'll be none, or it'll be an endless one :S Heart's desires? You got it!:)
1. My super-duper-uber-desire still remains to be TWO (2) MOST EXPENSIVE (ie VVIP) tickets to Jay Chou's concert.
2. Or I'll settle for Wang Lee Hom's concert.
3. A key...courtesy of mummy and daddy :)
4. A nice dress which will fit me. Many dresses dont.
5. Nice shoes which will look nice on me. Many shoes dont.
6. If I go on from here, it'll just never end.
But really! None of the above can be more important than what I truly want. Many birthdays of mine have come and gone and I tend to only wish for things that will sustain an individual throughout his/her life. I didn't get what I wanted last year...or, maybe, not in the way I intended it to be. This year, I made a promise to myself and I pray that I won't let myself down this time. I promise not to lose my head or my cool. I promise to be rational and responsible. I promise to be patient and kind. I promise to care and not to care. And I promise that I will make full use of everything opportunity. I promise to not let myself down again.
All the best girl. Happy early birthday :)
Supposedly my wish list this year will be different. I guess hitting 21 marks a beginning of something new, something fresh yet mature. Materialistically, I sincerely don't know what I'd like to buy. If I were to list, it'll be none, or it'll be an endless one :S Heart's desires? You got it!:)
1. My super-duper-uber-desire still remains to be TWO (2) MOST EXPENSIVE (ie VVIP) tickets to Jay Chou's concert.
2. Or I'll settle for Wang Lee Hom's concert.
3. A key...courtesy of mummy and daddy :)
4. A nice dress which will fit me. Many dresses dont.
5. Nice shoes which will look nice on me. Many shoes dont.
6. If I go on from here, it'll just never end.
But really! None of the above can be more important than what I truly want. Many birthdays of mine have come and gone and I tend to only wish for things that will sustain an individual throughout his/her life. I didn't get what I wanted last year...or, maybe, not in the way I intended it to be. This year, I made a promise to myself and I pray that I won't let myself down this time. I promise not to lose my head or my cool. I promise to be rational and responsible. I promise to be patient and kind. I promise to care and not to care. And I promise that I will make full use of everything opportunity. I promise to not let myself down again.
All the best girl. Happy early birthday :)
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Life in Beijing
I have wayyy too many memories in 清华; and I really don't know where to begin. The experience in 北京 was great as it is, uni life in China was definitely an eye opener. I kept a diary when I was in China, and I think the best way to gain an insight my daily life would be to read a few of my entries of my personal diary. Mind you, since the diary is usually for my eyes only, its structure is simplistic and the lexis is comprehensible to any young mind. So please don't expect some sophisticated award winning novel-like diary entries :)
19 Jul 2009, Sun
Woke up at 8.30am today, rolled around in bed until 8.45am until I suddenly remembered that the hot water was until 9am!!! I rushed out of bed into the shower; therefore having an early start to the day. And I finally could access the internet today – sheer happiness!
Today, Malcom picked us up from the hostel to have点心 in望京. It’s been quite hazy today, the surroundings look pretty blurred. As the driver drove us through the roads of北京, I looked out at the place and heard a familiar tune. It was Jay Chou’s说好的幸福呢!:) Capricon was playing throughout the car ride journey :) At that point in time, hearing the melodies I knew so well made me feel comfortable…as if I had no more insecurities, as if I knew everything was going to be okay, that I’ve found my corner. And it felt good :) I’ve finally relaxed.
点心 was good, they served roasted pigeon for starters on the house :) It was the pretty standard Cantonese点心, except that the char siew was fantastic! It was soft and enhanced with orange flavour! We then went to Itoyokado, some Korean departmental store to buy some groceries, especially water. After that, I got an invitation from Konrad to play volleyball at 5pm.
Konrad and Jakob took us to the volleyball courts – there are about 9 courts here that I’ve seen, not including the indoor ones. We played with some of the清华 students, who were amazing! As expected, they were really good with receiving spikes and setting. Haha, they got bored of us who were pretty incapable of playing coherently (except for Jakob) and we were left by our own to fool around…and nope, I still can’t get the overhead serve, I continuously slice the ball :(
We finished around 7pm and ML and I decided to check out the餐厅 around the uni. Luckily we were unfortunate in finding one which was open cause most of them close around 7-ishpm. And the food they serve didn’t look appetizing. I pointed at a bowl of soup noodles and asked the lady what it was, and she said冷面 – and it was rightfully cold! We ended up at the posh restaurant on campus…ordered some soup, chicken and rice – and it cost us about 36圆- £1.80 per person only!
At this moment, I’m feeling really tired cause I realized it’s been ages since I last played volleyball. After I dislocated my finger, it was perhaps 3 months before I played in Kilburn…which makes it nearly 5 months that I’ve never touched the volleyball. My back is aching, and I bet my thighs will too in the morning. Tata!
:)
19 Jul 2009, Sun
Woke up at 8.30am today, rolled around in bed until 8.45am until I suddenly remembered that the hot water was until 9am!!! I rushed out of bed into the shower; therefore having an early start to the day. And I finally could access the internet today – sheer happiness!
Today, Malcom picked us up from the hostel to have点心 in望京. It’s been quite hazy today, the surroundings look pretty blurred. As the driver drove us through the roads of北京, I looked out at the place and heard a familiar tune. It was Jay Chou’s说好的幸福呢!:) Capricon was playing throughout the car ride journey :) At that point in time, hearing the melodies I knew so well made me feel comfortable…as if I had no more insecurities, as if I knew everything was going to be okay, that I’ve found my corner. And it felt good :) I’ve finally relaxed.
点心 was good, they served roasted pigeon for starters on the house :) It was the pretty standard Cantonese点心, except that the char siew was fantastic! It was soft and enhanced with orange flavour! We then went to Itoyokado, some Korean departmental store to buy some groceries, especially water. After that, I got an invitation from Konrad to play volleyball at 5pm.
Konrad and Jakob took us to the volleyball courts – there are about 9 courts here that I’ve seen, not including the indoor ones. We played with some of the清华 students, who were amazing! As expected, they were really good with receiving spikes and setting. Haha, they got bored of us who were pretty incapable of playing coherently (except for Jakob) and we were left by our own to fool around…and nope, I still can’t get the overhead serve, I continuously slice the ball :(
We finished around 7pm and ML and I decided to check out the餐厅 around the uni. Luckily we were unfortunate in finding one which was open cause most of them close around 7-ishpm. And the food they serve didn’t look appetizing. I pointed at a bowl of soup noodles and asked the lady what it was, and she said冷面 – and it was rightfully cold! We ended up at the posh restaurant on campus…ordered some soup, chicken and rice – and it cost us about 36圆- £1.80 per person only!
At this moment, I’m feeling really tired cause I realized it’s been ages since I last played volleyball. After I dislocated my finger, it was perhaps 3 months before I played in Kilburn…which makes it nearly 5 months that I’ve never touched the volleyball. My back is aching, and I bet my thighs will too in the morning. Tata!
30 July 2009, Thursday
This diary thing is getting tiring – there’s so many things I want to pen down but day to day I don’t seem to find time. Anyways, today was great cause we got a volleyball coach from the Beijing Science and Technology Uni to come to especially train us! We did a little bit of drills (errr if you can call them that), and we only focused on digging (掂), and just a little bit of setting (传). The pointers I got from the lady coach was that (a) form both hands in a position as if to leave a ONE (yi) space, or EIGHT (ba) space. And flick as if you’re flicking a basketball into the hoop (or atleast I thought so). Practice was good, and I know that I needed more.
After dinner, ML Konrad and I went for taekwondo. It just brought back some memories which seem pretty far away in my mind. Here, the coach does lots of drills and exercises to train the students’ stamina, fitness and flexibility. The class is really small, not even about 20 students. Unlike mine, there were probably 50 of us at any one time! Then I saw a drill which I remember so very vaguely when I was young – running and shouting, doing random patterns and screaming too. I guess it was a part of taekwondo which I never really remembered. It also shows how serious the Chinese take their trainings – they wear guards when they spar, and they really emphasise a lot on fitness. The one and the half hours today did not even consist of revising any patterns. So different from ours. But I must concede that it is amazing that even the white belters have to go through the same drills as everyone else – and they are therefore fit from the start. And then it made me think about my trainings last time…seriously, the standard was nowhere near theirs. And I thought about starting again, you know, to relearn and improve somewhere along the way. But then, thinking about it, I have already achieved what most of the students would want to achieve. And I don’t know what other avenues to explore if I were to really start again and where do I move from there. There’s obviously no way I’m even thinking of going for the 2nd dan because I don’t even intend to become an instructor one day. And I obviously know that I need to train arduously, to be realistic. So I will just let this one go I guess. But it just reminds of the childhood I had and how much it meant to me at that point in time.
:)
北京 (Beijing)
After 5 long painstaking weeks, I am finally back in Motherland.
Yup, I had a little get away to Beijing. The trip did me good, and I've learnt lots since. As I dwell on what I miss most about Beijing....I would definitely say the teachers. The quality of the teaching and teachers are beyond words (or maybe I'm feeling tad lazy to search the dictionary). I see and feel the dedication of the teachers, wanting the best for us and wanting us to learn and understand more with each passing day. If there is anything I cherish and treasure, it is the warmth and passion of the teachers :)
I'll be nice to you readers this time and post some pictures:
刘老师 -历史 (History)
The whole crowd of our LSE intake + teachers: 徐老师-泛读 (Reading & Writing);刘老师-太极拳 (Taichi)
长城(慕田峪): The random people we met and subsequently hung out with at the Great Wall
戴老师 - 口语 (Speaking)
清华: The track field. The building behind (C 楼) is where our classes were held.
View from my window
Pretty gardens in the uni
While I'm aware that I've got only 7 measly photos up, I really can't be bothered to load anymore cause its so troublesome. Check out my fb then :) Photos will be up in due course.
I feel like I've experienced the uni life which I've been missing out. Qing Hua is massive - its approximately 4km x 4km wide. The students there, from 1st year to Masters/PhD are very involved in the school's activities ie mass parade for the Chinese National Day. It seemed like high school all over again, just on a larger scale. Everyone at the uni rides a bicycle - and I then rediscovered how much I used to love riding bicycles when I was younger. It felt good being in a place where no one knows you and you can start all over again. Be clumsy, be a fool, look uncool...no one cares :) I enjoyed the presure-less environment over there, and I just wished I would be there just a little longer.
The trip really has been eventful and fruitful. Not only did I improve on my Mandarin, I learnt lots about the Chinese history and culture. Also, I've learnt "people-interaction" skills - there's probably a word which sounds more smooth than this, but I don't intend to crack my head at the moment. I feel that I've been out in the cold for quite a while, not been interacting lots with people...ironic, I know. But this trip reminded me how important it is to handle expectations tactfully and how to treat one another well. Suddenly, I feel like a kid again.
Yup, I had a little get away to Beijing. The trip did me good, and I've learnt lots since. As I dwell on what I miss most about Beijing....I would definitely say the teachers. The quality of the teaching and teachers are beyond words (or maybe I'm feeling tad lazy to search the dictionary). I see and feel the dedication of the teachers, wanting the best for us and wanting us to learn and understand more with each passing day. If there is anything I cherish and treasure, it is the warmth and passion of the teachers :)
I'll be nice to you readers this time and post some pictures:
刘老师 -历史 (History)
The whole crowd of our LSE intake + teachers: 徐老师-泛读 (Reading & Writing);刘老师-太极拳 (Taichi)
长城(慕田峪): The random people we met and subsequently hung out with at the Great Wall
戴老师 - 口语 (Speaking)
清华: The track field. The building behind (C 楼) is where our classes were held.
View from my window
Pretty gardens in the uni
While I'm aware that I've got only 7 measly photos up, I really can't be bothered to load anymore cause its so troublesome. Check out my fb then :) Photos will be up in due course.
I feel like I've experienced the uni life which I've been missing out. Qing Hua is massive - its approximately 4km x 4km wide. The students there, from 1st year to Masters/PhD are very involved in the school's activities ie mass parade for the Chinese National Day. It seemed like high school all over again, just on a larger scale. Everyone at the uni rides a bicycle - and I then rediscovered how much I used to love riding bicycles when I was younger. It felt good being in a place where no one knows you and you can start all over again. Be clumsy, be a fool, look uncool...no one cares :) I enjoyed the presure-less environment over there, and I just wished I would be there just a little longer.
The trip really has been eventful and fruitful. Not only did I improve on my Mandarin, I learnt lots about the Chinese history and culture. Also, I've learnt "people-interaction" skills - there's probably a word which sounds more smooth than this, but I don't intend to crack my head at the moment. I feel that I've been out in the cold for quite a while, not been interacting lots with people...ironic, I know. But this trip reminded me how important it is to handle expectations tactfully and how to treat one another well. Suddenly, I feel like a kid again.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Summer phase 3 :)
What have I been up to these past few days? Yesterday, I was in KL (city centre) in the morning and at night...and I must say, KL (both in the morning AND night) is not my favourite place to be! I think I've just experienced how freeeaaakkky KL could be.
Yes, so I was at Pudu, see? And having missed a U-turn on Jln Tun Perak, I had to go on straight....and straight...and straight...until I got a little bit worried that I didn't know where I was. So I decided to turn left into Tung Shin Hospital. And in efforts to find a way back out onto the main road...I went through the backroads of the hospital! Now, the hospital is (as far as I know) one of the oldest, if not the oldest hospital in KL. And as I've heard, it has a notorious reputation for spirits. Um, obviously I just freaked out lar. As I went in and out of the backlanes...thoughts just spiralled in my mind. After hearing so many terrifying and grosteque happenings in KL, anything could happen anywhere anytime. Especially when alone in an unknown area. I could so imagine the headlines the next day: Girl Found Dead, Chopped Body Parts Found in Klang River, to the horror of my parents :(
Then I got smarter: I started to look at landmarks. Thank goodness there are many skyscrapers to guide me! I looked up to the KL Tower and Maybank to get my bearings. Since Maybank was nearer, I started driving towards the building...by going through this dodgy hill where there were lots of motorcyclists. Atfirst I got worried, but then I saw the KL Hop on Hop off bus right infront of me and I thought...well if the tourist bus brings tourists through that road, it should be safe enough, and furthermore the bus would be stopped at Malaysia's landmarks. So I tailled the bus until I got out to the main road to happiness!
So, for those amateur drivers in KL city centre, RULE NUMBER ONE is to be alert - surroundings, direction, traffic. NEVER look lost or dumbfounded even though you genuinely are - act cool :) And look at skyscrapers if you get lost...KL Tower and the Twin Towers should be relatively easy to find. Also, if you get lost, I think its no harm to follow the tourist bus :)
And with my little adventure gone, I am here to bid farewell to the blog and you anonymous readers for the time being!:)
Yup, I am going to Beijing tomorrow for 5 weeks to start Summer Phase 3, and I am saying ta-ta for the moment as China has blocked blogspot :( Hence, expect a period of hiatus!
Summer Phase 2 came and gone; and I smack myself for not being industrious enough to keep a diary of daily happenings. And since I won't be able blog about Beijing here, I guess I'm going to either find something else ie twitter (I still don't see the point of that?!), myspace, wordpress...or maybe just keep a real diary. Which I used to when I was younger but then it felt awkward talking to myself. But that's quite odd again cause when I was much younger I did like to talk to myself. Anyway, since I'm not going to be able to access my blog, it's only fair if you can't as well :) Also gives me some time to work on the blogskin...which can improve.
Take care people, have a great summer, and hopefully my journey abroad will be a new fruitful experience for me :)
Yes, so I was at Pudu, see? And having missed a U-turn on Jln Tun Perak, I had to go on straight....and straight...and straight...until I got a little bit worried that I didn't know where I was. So I decided to turn left into Tung Shin Hospital. And in efforts to find a way back out onto the main road...I went through the backroads of the hospital! Now, the hospital is (as far as I know) one of the oldest, if not the oldest hospital in KL. And as I've heard, it has a notorious reputation for spirits. Um, obviously I just freaked out lar. As I went in and out of the backlanes...thoughts just spiralled in my mind. After hearing so many terrifying and grosteque happenings in KL, anything could happen anywhere anytime. Especially when alone in an unknown area. I could so imagine the headlines the next day: Girl Found Dead, Chopped Body Parts Found in Klang River, to the horror of my parents :(
Then I got smarter: I started to look at landmarks. Thank goodness there are many skyscrapers to guide me! I looked up to the KL Tower and Maybank to get my bearings. Since Maybank was nearer, I started driving towards the building...by going through this dodgy hill where there were lots of motorcyclists. Atfirst I got worried, but then I saw the KL Hop on Hop off bus right infront of me and I thought...well if the tourist bus brings tourists through that road, it should be safe enough, and furthermore the bus would be stopped at Malaysia's landmarks. So I tailled the bus until I got out to the main road to happiness!
So, for those amateur drivers in KL city centre, RULE NUMBER ONE is to be alert - surroundings, direction, traffic. NEVER look lost or dumbfounded even though you genuinely are - act cool :) And look at skyscrapers if you get lost...KL Tower and the Twin Towers should be relatively easy to find. Also, if you get lost, I think its no harm to follow the tourist bus :)
And with my little adventure gone, I am here to bid farewell to the blog and you anonymous readers for the time being!:)
Yup, I am going to Beijing tomorrow for 5 weeks to start Summer Phase 3, and I am saying ta-ta for the moment as China has blocked blogspot :( Hence, expect a period of hiatus!
Summer Phase 2 came and gone; and I smack myself for not being industrious enough to keep a diary of daily happenings. And since I won't be able blog about Beijing here, I guess I'm going to either find something else ie twitter (I still don't see the point of that?!), myspace, wordpress...or maybe just keep a real diary. Which I used to when I was younger but then it felt awkward talking to myself. But that's quite odd again cause when I was much younger I did like to talk to myself. Anyway, since I'm not going to be able to access my blog, it's only fair if you can't as well :) Also gives me some time to work on the blogskin...which can improve.
Take care people, have a great summer, and hopefully my journey abroad will be a new fruitful experience for me :)
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Mere dream?
I went to look up what surreal meant...and it was described as having the disorientating, hallucinatory quality of a dream. I could not have expressed this better.
A lot of things feel weird and I'm still on my quest of finding out why. Its paradoxical to say that my oldest and most trusted corner does not feel like my own anymore. Sometimes I feel like I'm constantly reverting between two worlds; unsure if I'd really like the fusion to occur.
But then came the day which took me by surprise and I realise I can no longer hide...nor disguise what I used to be, what I was, and contrast with what I am today. You came in and looked curiously at the strange surroundings, perhaps making a judgment of who I am. And somehow I may not fit into the puzzle.
Little did I know that along the way, that you are unknowingly being integrated into what I hardly show to the rest. Walking along the steps that my small feet use to run over, touching the things which I used to be fond of dearly. Its not just the material objects, its also the communication which has lived for long. The noisy silence that occasionally runs through the environment...probably something you can't comprehend; neither could I. As you quietly pick upon the simplest yet rawest memories of my life, I wince. I wince because it feels so private and untouched; not a soul must know anything. It felt uncomfortable because its a part where I don't hope for people to know. Surprisingly...it felt good to share, and I sincerely understand what it means to let someone into your life. In your past, present and future. And that, within my insecurities, I am happy to share.
I wonder to myself every chance I get...was this real? I still feel dazzled and am not sure what kind of impression it had left on you. If anything should happen to me, at the very least, I would be happy to know that I have exposed what I was and what I am to who I deem important. If this is surreal, then I would be happy to continue hallucinating in this dream.
A lot of things feel weird and I'm still on my quest of finding out why. Its paradoxical to say that my oldest and most trusted corner does not feel like my own anymore. Sometimes I feel like I'm constantly reverting between two worlds; unsure if I'd really like the fusion to occur.
But then came the day which took me by surprise and I realise I can no longer hide...nor disguise what I used to be, what I was, and contrast with what I am today. You came in and looked curiously at the strange surroundings, perhaps making a judgment of who I am. And somehow I may not fit into the puzzle.
Little did I know that along the way, that you are unknowingly being integrated into what I hardly show to the rest. Walking along the steps that my small feet use to run over, touching the things which I used to be fond of dearly. Its not just the material objects, its also the communication which has lived for long. The noisy silence that occasionally runs through the environment...probably something you can't comprehend; neither could I. As you quietly pick upon the simplest yet rawest memories of my life, I wince. I wince because it feels so private and untouched; not a soul must know anything. It felt uncomfortable because its a part where I don't hope for people to know. Surprisingly...it felt good to share, and I sincerely understand what it means to let someone into your life. In your past, present and future. And that, within my insecurities, I am happy to share.
I wonder to myself every chance I get...was this real? I still feel dazzled and am not sure what kind of impression it had left on you. If anything should happen to me, at the very least, I would be happy to know that I have exposed what I was and what I am to who I deem important. If this is surreal, then I would be happy to continue hallucinating in this dream.
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
25 random things
Sometime during this year (maybe before Easter?) there was this hype about telling the world 25 random things about yourself. I was tagged a few times in people's blogs and in facebook...and since I'm free during this holidays, I might as well scramble a few things about myself!:) So here goes, I don't even know if I can come up with that many things to say!
1. I've been a loyal fan of Archie comics ever since primary school. I still am. The last time I've read an Archie comic was 8.7.09 (which is today). The last time I've read an Archie comic before today was yesterday.
2. I can blow bubbles out of my mouth. Without any external assistance. Hmm, go figure this one out.
3. I love pomeranians...(if you're my friend you should be able to tell at some point...)
4. There's a misconception that I am a loyal fan of Jay Chou because of his good looks. NO! It is his music which is enticing!
5. I've had lots of classes for different skills (ie art, music, tennis..etc) but I've never really become good at anything in particular. I'm still no jack of all trades and definitely master of none.
6. You know Full House? Like that teenager teen show/books? I absolutely loved the books and had the whole collection of it at home...and read it over and over again until Form 3. (For those of you who don't know what Full House is, its sort of the equivalent to Sweet Valley Twins)
7. I've read a few people's "Random 25" and most of them state that they listen to a song repeatedly. I am no exception. I've got a few songs which I have listened for a long period of time. For example, ever since Secret came out, I've been listening to 不能说的秘密 almost everyday until today. Now, Secret came out in August 2007...
8. My UK handphone ringtone was Jay Chou's 我不配 (wo bu pei). For a WHOLE year. It played so many times for so long that Rin (my flatmate) knew how to sing it by heart!:)
9. I've got a distinctive birthmark on my cheek. Yet many people think it's either (a) a scar; or (b) an accident...and many people ask me Oh Ist what happened to you and stop when they see my puzzled look.
10. I have no idea why my mole near my left eye is intruiging to my college friends =.=
11. I used to be a big Spice Girls fan (of similar magnitude to Jay Chou). I collected almost everything...posters, newspaper clippings, tapes, CDs, stickers....and my favourite was Baby Spice. I was so heartbroken when they split.
12. I'm a little weird in some ways. I'm sometimes slightly noisy and quite easy to talk to...yet sometimes I'm a person of no words. Not very helpful, is it?
13. I'm perhaps better at expressing myself with writing rather than speaking. I enjoy taking my time to write cause I do try to express myself as accurately and honestly as possible. Even though my English is not that great/superb.
14. If you already can't tell, I am engrossed in volleyball. Not that I'm good in it, but ever since I started out playing in Form 1, I guess there's this indescribable link which connects me to the game. Yes, I am that philosophically and emotionally attached to that game.
15. I love the game so much so that I seriously did consider moving up the ladder and maybe pursuing my dreams in volleyball. I nearly went for some state training back in Form 3 just to push my limits higher. But not everything works out the way that you plan it to, and I'm happy with where I am now :)
16. There are a few things which I like to collect. I like to collect special candles, ie not normal candles where you can get on the market. Example I've got a coconut candle, red bean soup candle, star jelly candle, seashell candle...
17. And I love to collect keychains from places I visit! And these must be special keychains too! I've got some random but cute keychains like a basketball, a huge cap, a big die, a MTV one, a masquerade mask, a Hollywood tape...
18. I have started collecting shot glasses!:) Interesting stuff...
19. I really want to start collecting chess sets, cause some look so interesting and majestic! But I guess that's a collection that will have to wait in future cause chess sets are usually so expensive :(
20. I'm quite a safe person, hence I usually go back to things I like. Means that I tend to order the same kind of food that I like, wear the same things, shop for the same groceries, listen to the same songs, write the same kind of essays...
21. I am a law student but I still consider myself mathematical/scientific at heart. And sometimes I question if I should have pursued something else and play my cards to my strengths instead.
22. I have opinions but I am almost never argumentative - its just not my nature. Hence I do my best to avoid conflicts/scandals/misunderstandings etc.
23. Ever since high school, I've been only listening to a throng of Mandarin songs. Hence, there are different Chinese songs which links me to different parts of my life. I used to listen to Diamond Dust in Form 1 cause I was hooked into Iceworld (some jap show). 星晴 reminds me of Form 2 cause that was the first Jay Chou song I heard. And I can still remember 不能說的秘密:) I was watching Secret for the first time with kshen, and towards the end of the movie when the first chord was stuck beginning with "你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远 ..." we both were overwhelmed. It was just the perfect way to end the movie and then let it stick in your memory. Though I've no part of my life that can relate to this song, it just has a nostalgic feeling to it - well done Jay Chou :) 转机 is more like my kind of music...slow yet not entirely slow like others - and it gives a somewhat melancholic & bittersweet feeling. 愛轉角 is more of a sweet song with hopes. 心跳 kind of pulls the heartstrings cause I think it describes accurately that heart-beat-feeling when a significant someone is around. The latest is probably 眼泪敌人 by Alan Kuo which reminds me of my just-a-while-ago-internship. Likely its cause I was watching some Taiwanese show which had this song!:) It just kind of reminds me about walking along River Thames when I walk home from work.
24. Yes I'm at 24! Ugh, what else? Erm okay, so when I was young, I like to talk to myself.
25. I think I've always wanted to become a doctor. That changed when it came to UCAS when reality hit me that I can't commit to the long-life education and super long inflexible hours.
It took me sooo long to come up with 25 things. Enjoy!
1. I've been a loyal fan of Archie comics ever since primary school. I still am. The last time I've read an Archie comic was 8.7.09 (which is today). The last time I've read an Archie comic before today was yesterday.
2. I can blow bubbles out of my mouth. Without any external assistance. Hmm, go figure this one out.
3. I love pomeranians...(if you're my friend you should be able to tell at some point...)
4. There's a misconception that I am a loyal fan of Jay Chou because of his good looks. NO! It is his music which is enticing!
5. I've had lots of classes for different skills (ie art, music, tennis..etc) but I've never really become good at anything in particular. I'm still no jack of all trades and definitely master of none.
6. You know Full House? Like that teenager teen show/books? I absolutely loved the books and had the whole collection of it at home...and read it over and over again until Form 3. (For those of you who don't know what Full House is, its sort of the equivalent to Sweet Valley Twins)
7. I've read a few people's "Random 25" and most of them state that they listen to a song repeatedly. I am no exception. I've got a few songs which I have listened for a long period of time. For example, ever since Secret came out, I've been listening to 不能说的秘密 almost everyday until today. Now, Secret came out in August 2007...
8. My UK handphone ringtone was Jay Chou's 我不配 (wo bu pei). For a WHOLE year. It played so many times for so long that Rin (my flatmate) knew how to sing it by heart!:)
9. I've got a distinctive birthmark on my cheek. Yet many people think it's either (a) a scar; or (b) an accident...and many people ask me Oh Ist what happened to you and stop when they see my puzzled look.
10. I have no idea why my mole near my left eye is intruiging to my college friends =.=
11. I used to be a big Spice Girls fan (of similar magnitude to Jay Chou). I collected almost everything...posters, newspaper clippings, tapes, CDs, stickers....and my favourite was Baby Spice. I was so heartbroken when they split.
12. I'm a little weird in some ways. I'm sometimes slightly noisy and quite easy to talk to...yet sometimes I'm a person of no words. Not very helpful, is it?
13. I'm perhaps better at expressing myself with writing rather than speaking. I enjoy taking my time to write cause I do try to express myself as accurately and honestly as possible. Even though my English is not that great/superb.
14. If you already can't tell, I am engrossed in volleyball. Not that I'm good in it, but ever since I started out playing in Form 1, I guess there's this indescribable link which connects me to the game. Yes, I am that philosophically and emotionally attached to that game.
15. I love the game so much so that I seriously did consider moving up the ladder and maybe pursuing my dreams in volleyball. I nearly went for some state training back in Form 3 just to push my limits higher. But not everything works out the way that you plan it to, and I'm happy with where I am now :)
16. There are a few things which I like to collect. I like to collect special candles, ie not normal candles where you can get on the market. Example I've got a coconut candle, red bean soup candle, star jelly candle, seashell candle...
17. And I love to collect keychains from places I visit! And these must be special keychains too! I've got some random but cute keychains like a basketball, a huge cap, a big die, a MTV one, a masquerade mask, a Hollywood tape...
18. I have started collecting shot glasses!:) Interesting stuff...
19. I really want to start collecting chess sets, cause some look so interesting and majestic! But I guess that's a collection that will have to wait in future cause chess sets are usually so expensive :(
20. I'm quite a safe person, hence I usually go back to things I like. Means that I tend to order the same kind of food that I like, wear the same things, shop for the same groceries, listen to the same songs, write the same kind of essays...
21. I am a law student but I still consider myself mathematical/scientific at heart. And sometimes I question if I should have pursued something else and play my cards to my strengths instead.
22. I have opinions but I am almost never argumentative - its just not my nature. Hence I do my best to avoid conflicts/scandals/misunderstandings etc.
23. Ever since high school, I've been only listening to a throng of Mandarin songs. Hence, there are different Chinese songs which links me to different parts of my life. I used to listen to Diamond Dust in Form 1 cause I was hooked into Iceworld (some jap show). 星晴 reminds me of Form 2 cause that was the first Jay Chou song I heard. And I can still remember 不能說的秘密:) I was watching Secret for the first time with kshen, and towards the end of the movie when the first chord was stuck beginning with "你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远 ..." we both were overwhelmed. It was just the perfect way to end the movie and then let it stick in your memory. Though I've no part of my life that can relate to this song, it just has a nostalgic feeling to it - well done Jay Chou :) 转机 is more like my kind of music...slow yet not entirely slow like others - and it gives a somewhat melancholic & bittersweet feeling. 愛轉角 is more of a sweet song with hopes. 心跳 kind of pulls the heartstrings cause I think it describes accurately that heart-beat-feeling when a significant someone is around. The latest is probably 眼泪敌人 by Alan Kuo which reminds me of my just-a-while-ago-internship. Likely its cause I was watching some Taiwanese show which had this song!:) It just kind of reminds me about walking along River Thames when I walk home from work.
24. Yes I'm at 24! Ugh, what else? Erm okay, so when I was young, I like to talk to myself.
25. I think I've always wanted to become a doctor. That changed when it came to UCAS when reality hit me that I can't commit to the long-life education and super long inflexible hours.
It took me sooo long to come up with 25 things. Enjoy!
Monday, July 06, 2009
Can't be bothered to think of an appropriate title
I can't exactly describe how I feel at the moment. Few hours ago, I told a friend that this feels so surreal and that time has gone by so fast - and second year has ended.
Now, I'm beginning to feel that it is, in fact, surreal...but for different reasons. I don't know where to start, whether to laugh or cry. It is slimpy hysterical, that I was completely wrong - I was misled, everything was misrepresented, to me. For what had seemed so affirmative and confident had really got me gawping at reality. I just blatantly don't know what went wrong. Or why I had seem so sure of what is to be. Overconfidence kills, you know? I learnt it the hard way.
Contrastingly...while I should applaud my efforts, I think it's rather unbelievable of what I had attained. Yet again, I was just so sure that the paper was notoriously rubbish. To be strict, I have to be sincerely pleased if I should have passed it. Then, with a struck of luck (or irony?)...you can probably guess that it wasnt the case in the present :) Great, but, I don't know how everything is justified. Overconfidence blesses here.
How do I gauge now? All I know is...this has been an up and down year for me. Many people would disagree I suppose, but I just think that it just works differently for all of us. This year has taught me to be not so sure anymore, and not to be too confident. It is entirely up to you to decide if this is to be welcomed or not. I'm starting to question a lot of things now...and I think I don't know where my path will lead me or if its too late to do anything drastic. I think I'm just tired, you know? Of what people expect me to be...sometimes its too much to live up to it.
Now, I'm beginning to feel that it is, in fact, surreal...but for different reasons. I don't know where to start, whether to laugh or cry. It is slimpy hysterical, that I was completely wrong - I was misled, everything was misrepresented, to me. For what had seemed so affirmative and confident had really got me gawping at reality. I just blatantly don't know what went wrong. Or why I had seem so sure of what is to be. Overconfidence kills, you know? I learnt it the hard way.
Contrastingly...while I should applaud my efforts, I think it's rather unbelievable of what I had attained. Yet again, I was just so sure that the paper was notoriously rubbish. To be strict, I have to be sincerely pleased if I should have passed it. Then, with a struck of luck (or irony?)...you can probably guess that it wasnt the case in the present :) Great, but, I don't know how everything is justified. Overconfidence blesses here.
How do I gauge now? All I know is...this has been an up and down year for me. Many people would disagree I suppose, but I just think that it just works differently for all of us. This year has taught me to be not so sure anymore, and not to be too confident. It is entirely up to you to decide if this is to be welcomed or not. I'm starting to question a lot of things now...and I think I don't know where my path will lead me or if its too late to do anything drastic. I think I'm just tired, you know? Of what people expect me to be...sometimes its too much to live up to it.
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