Its coming to the end of the first month of uni here. A lot of things are unsettled, namely my law notes...and worse,I'm getting spanked in class for not working hard enough. I'm so afraid that my eyes are going as I read through thousands and thousands of words.

Uni is much different from what I had anticipated, there are a lot of things I miss, probably one of the most is being spoon fed =) The study technique here is different, and as with my course I need to pick up and develop different skills which I've never really done before. A new subject is interesting, but nonetheless intimidating. A lot of people have much of an edge as compared to me in terms of previous knowledge. I have lots to catch up, before I get left behind. Oh and I had never expected so much sociology and philosophy in my reading lists! Especially literature as well - the olden English has gotten me dizzy.


While I can't say I totally love my life now, being here has its own merits. I'm in no position to complain cos I've got my college friends so close to me, a nice big comfy room......and hmmm, maybe thats it.

Maybe I'm too pampered, but sometimes I can't help feeling the hollow within me. Sometimes, just emptiness. Probably a little lost in direction, where should I go, what should I do, is everything going on okay...that kind of stuff. I don't like being my own boss, and succumbing to my emotions.

At this juncture, which will prevail? My persistence, or will my emotions eat me alive? I shudder at the thought.

If you can,take me with you..