Sudden Impulsion

I have this sudden impulsion to blog right now.

I have never felt this way in a long long time. The joyous feeling, the happiness. The liberty. The time where my muscles ached from smiling too much - too broadly. Oh yeah, I'll remember the 42 minutes. In high spirits, bouncing down the sidewalk..suddenly everything seems right - everything seems like it is falling into place.

But who knew what would have happened. Slowly and unsuspectingly though predictably, it comes all crashing down - to an end. How am I suppose to deal with it?
I never knew, or probably forgotten, how it could feel this way.
How do I surpress it, how do I let it go? Why won't it come out, why won't it just go away?

What can I do, what should I do?
Why are some things meant to be, and some just aren't? Why can't everyone be happy?

可惜... 我早知道结局...