What do I do?

WARNING: you should not be able to comprehend the rest of the post, hence...read at your own risk/boredom

Its pretty weird how I came to feel this way. I don't believe I was deluded for the past couple of months, rather amazed at how long it lingered. But I can't explain anymore. The shift. I don't think its rather quite the same, but once I found out that there could be a possibility that you won't be here, I was stunned. Never expected the unexpected. What do I do? Note that its not that you have been by my side all these time. Not to say that we're close even. So why do I care?

I do care, cause you're my friend. Lively and uplifting, one will always find you energetic and invigorating. Perhaps I have only one request - don't leave. One too many has left me. Most of the people closest to me are all away. Another has vanished. What do I do?

Perhaps I will not be in your contemplation. Totally understandable, I don't expect it at all. But who knows who feels the most - the one leaving or the one being left. I don't even want to hear you say that you've made the decision to go. Its going to be dull. And..perhaps a lost opportunity. Whatever it is, I wish you all the best - and whatever happens, will happen for the best. Good luck to you.