Question Mark?

On another note, I don't know if a different cycle is starting. I never realised how much commonalities were present. And I never realised how much was interlinked between us.

Perhaps my self-consciousness came about when reading an unfinished email which was to be sent to a friend a year ago. No, more than a year ago. Funny how when I read it now...I realised, wait a minute, how could I have felt that way last time, and feel the same way now.

I was a little bit confused.

Then I started looking through photographs. In there I found the most obscure photos which I've never really taken a second glance - but it was still there - the possibility. Funny how I don't remember much of me and you. Maybe there really wasn't much to remember. Or maybe I was restraining myself - for a really good reason - to never betray my ethics.

Then I remembered one post just for you. That I really didn't remember at all.

I don't know if I'm approaching a dead end. Perhaps I am. Especially when I heard it was just plain and platonic...I started to question. I don't know why, for some weird reason, I've always believed that you can always tell with body language - its very easy for two people to feel the same thing - its so easy to tell. Now I don't know anymore. Because all these while...maybe it felt a little different. I don't know. I thought...for a split second, for a period, I really did thought...

Then I realised all these emotions coming in. Unfamiliar yet not unusual. Special because I've decided to open up, not to avoid, go for it. Because I want to. And that I've never really been able to do this for a long time. As much effort it requires, I feel the emotions. I have emotions.

I have been wondering if I'm deciphering this too deep - and if I'm a fool to actually believe something I'm very unsure of. A friend told me, time will tell - I believe it will.

I always believe that whatever happens, happens for the best. I still do. But at this point, I really hope that this is really the best for the best. Because I think I've found happiness.