Where have you been?

Just this very moment I read a post of a friend of mine whom I have not spoken to for a long, long, time. And yes, my friend had brought back many memories that I've not been reminiscing for a moment. For a long while. Ever since all of us have left high school behind.

Ahhh yes high school. Things were simpler back then (okay so I've just left high school like, 3 years ago?). Back then it was just friends, getting through exams, going out, bumming at home, and driving (yes!). But a steep change of lifestyle and mentality has occurred in these 3 short years. The future, for instance, keeps on playing in our minds. Career, security, relationships, and sometimes all that you plan don't work out.

Yes, the thing I like best about my blog (and perhaps the only thing!) is that I like to reminisce and reflect. I remember laughing so hard one day about the really really lame joke that Mdm. Haslina was telling us in class. Kept on laughing all the way from the Science Lab back to class which took about, 5 minutes. I remember me and Tze Yee cursing each other that both of us will never get an A for our SPM Maths. I remember doing literally nothing in Bio class, except for copying notes from the board, double checking work (I stress, not copying!=) ) with Daniel, breaking the large 2L beaker in the Chem lab, getting scolded unreasonably by a teacher for "not greeting her" (I shall not argue my case here, it will be too long), laughing so much in English because my classmates annoy my teacher, posing with the class for the Moral project, standing up in class to bersyair for BM (that was not good), again, standing up in class for the entire period for failing to answer an Add Maths question correctly (eeeeeee I really won't forget that!).


Uncool as it may sound, many of my days were dominated by my prefectorial duties. Ahh yes. Bittersweet they were. Alongside the long periods of duties (some were really meaningless), enforcing school rules (shoes, ties, socks...radddy rahh) but behind the scenes lie multiple questions of relationships, ethics, and loyalty. It has never been easy being a prefect, the middleman between the school authorities and students. You learn that you cannot make everyone happy and fulfill everyone's expectations. And you learn what should your priorities be and how far does your loyalty lie. You learn to draw the invisible line. Along the way I am glad to say I have met people who are the reason I am sane, and those who can understand our positions as well. This is what friends are for. While it wasn't entirely a smooth journey, I'm glad I've made good friends rather than otherwise. Also, there was a particular issue to which, till today, and perhaps for a long time to come, I feel the injustice that has been done to me. I believe that certain issues had no grounds for arguments. And as a result of this unfairness, I have failed to attain my very-much-wanted desire. All efforts were gone. Could be a lesson to me (of which till today I have no idea what it is), but indeed I have not suffered the most. It was painful after a while, even when looking back, there is that "should have been" kind of feeling.

But life teaches not to have any regrets. I believe it was for the better =)

Volleyball has also been a huge component of my high schoo life. Loved it, still love it, and perhaps will continue doing so. But this again is another story of bittersweet memories. I really don't know when I was obsessed with the sport. Another tale which I shall not go into.

My dear friend, thanks for bringing back some memories. If it was not for your post, I wouldn't have also recalled how good a friend you were. What a great person you were. And how I enjoyed your company. Would really love to see you again one day =)

Comeback

Okay! Since my last post, many events had happened and are currently happening as well. Perhaps the more important and significant ones would be exams, holidays, and finally work!

Aaaah well. I suppose all is well, and well-being shouldn't be taken for granted. I really really thank God and all those who have prayed for me (yay, maybe I'm going to become a better person!) during the extremely stressful exam period. For about ATLEAST a month I had no social life - literally stuck in the library from 10.30am - 12am, or sometimes even 1am plus. The long hours, painful endurance during that period....is not something I want to go through again next year. Hence, the moral of the story: start consistent work at the beginning of the year, don't burn the midnight oil :( Teaches me a good lesson for slacking off the first and second term, literally reading NOTHING. Which is why, I am grateful that I have achieved what I aimed for - 2.1 !! =) And after many months of confusion, doubt and uncertainty, I know now that I can do it. And if I can do it, so can you! (random..but yeah..!)


Alrights. Work tomorrow, nites.