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Merry Christmas to everyone out there!;) Hope you guys have a great celebration today!!

And I started my Christmas morning just like any other day, blaring my MP3, surfing the computer...checking mails, checking on apps, abit of work, watching series, youtubing.......untilyouruineditall.

Aaaah!

I like to think that I'm quite an obliging person by nature, and that I do things without being asked or inquiring lots in return. This is to create a harmonious, conducive atmosphere where everyone can live happily together.

But there are some things which I will not stand for.

I can do everything that you've asked me to do. Just except this one. I detest those who are irresponsible, not willing to pull their own weight of burden into a partnership, and worst of all, delegating like there's no tomorrow.

And it IS not fair. By the very nature of my circumstance, it DEFINITELY does not fall within my jurisdiction even if I yearn for such so-called honour.

Don't use your mandate to create such authority. It is tooo much. And I repeat, I will not stand for such rubbish.

Expect me to rebel almost immediately.

Question Mark?

On another note, I don't know if a different cycle is starting. I never realised how much commonalities were present. And I never realised how much was interlinked between us.

Perhaps my self-consciousness came about when reading an unfinished email which was to be sent to a friend a year ago. No, more than a year ago. Funny how when I read it now...I realised, wait a minute, how could I have felt that way last time, and feel the same way now.

I was a little bit confused.

Then I started looking through photographs. In there I found the most obscure photos which I've never really taken a second glance - but it was still there - the possibility. Funny how I don't remember much of me and you. Maybe there really wasn't much to remember. Or maybe I was restraining myself - for a really good reason - to never betray my ethics.

Then I remembered one post just for you. That I really didn't remember at all.

I don't know if I'm approaching a dead end. Perhaps I am. Especially when I heard it was just plain and platonic...I started to question. I don't know why, for some weird reason, I've always believed that you can always tell with body language - its very easy for two people to feel the same thing - its so easy to tell. Now I don't know anymore. Because all these while...maybe it felt a little different. I don't know. I thought...for a split second, for a period, I really did thought...

Then I realised all these emotions coming in. Unfamiliar yet not unusual. Special because I've decided to open up, not to avoid, go for it. Because I want to. And that I've never really been able to do this for a long time. As much effort it requires, I feel the emotions. I have emotions.

I have been wondering if I'm deciphering this too deep - and if I'm a fool to actually believe something I'm very unsure of. A friend told me, time will tell - I believe it will.

I always believe that whatever happens, happens for the best. I still do. But at this point, I really hope that this is really the best for the best. Because I think I've found happiness.