Can't be bothered to think of an appropriate title

I can't exactly describe how I feel at the moment. Few hours ago, I told a friend that this feels so surreal and that time has gone by so fast - and second year has ended.

Now, I'm beginning to feel that it is, in fact, surreal...but for different reasons. I don't know where to start, whether to laugh or cry. It is slimpy hysterical, that I was completely wrong - I was misled, everything was misrepresented, to me. For what had seemed so affirmative and confident had really got me gawping at reality. I just blatantly don't know what went wrong. Or why I had seem so sure of what is to be. Overconfidence kills, you know? I learnt it the hard way.

Contrastingly...while I should applaud my efforts, I think it's rather unbelievable of what I had attained. Yet again, I was just so sure that the paper was notoriously rubbish. To be strict, I have to be sincerely pleased if I should have passed it. Then, with a struck of luck (or irony?)...you can probably guess that it wasnt the case in the present :) Great, but, I don't know how everything is justified. Overconfidence blesses here.

How do I gauge now? All I know is...this has been an up and down year for me. Many people would disagree I suppose, but I just think that it just works differently for all of us. This year has taught me to be not so sure anymore, and not to be too confident. It is entirely up to you to decide if this is to be welcomed or not. I'm starting to question a lot of things now...and I think I don't know where my path will lead me or if its too late to do anything drastic. I think I'm just tired, you know? Of what people expect me to be...sometimes its too much to live up to it.